Keeping on...
As I said in the last post - here we go, well we're goin!
Michael's first couple days at therapy were good. The Rehab Center seems great, Therapist seem great, I think this will be really good for him. As I've said to Michael more than once, it's up to him to get the real results. In thinking about this I realize many, if not all of us, struggle with the same things he is - the prize or reward is maybe a little more important for Michael.
Here's what I'm saying... Have you tried to lose weight recently? Have you tried at least one method and not made it past the 2nd or 3rd day? Think about this! I can say for myself, especially in the last few years where this thing of losing weight has become a challenge, that I really, genuinely want to be more healthy. I feel I NEED to, I'm tired and even disgusted with myself for the shape I'm in and even more for the fact that I won't or can't stick with it. It's not that I can't do this, I have no medical condition preventing me, I just don't. Well I think, for Michael it is much the same, with the exception that he does have some medical conditions that make his quest more difficult. I imagine, just as I do, there are times when he is set on doing whatever it takes. Then I imagine, just as it is with me, there are times when he just doesn't want to mess with it. Again, I must state that these latter times with him are, I believe, much more difficult. For me it is being lazy or wanting to taste some food, for him it is complete frustration cause he has to think hard and push hard just to move his hand from his side to the computer in-front of him. Here's how it was described to me:
When you or I want to reach out and touch a specific point in front of us, we simply do it. When Michael wants to reach out and touch, say the area of his computer that says "Yes". He has to think of every step, one at a time and remember every step. He has to think of lifting his elbow, then straightening his arm, then lifting his hand toward - (at this point he has to remember what he was going to reach for in the first place) then he has to process, what does "yes" look like, how far to extend his finger, he has to deal with the pain as well as the frustration in all of this. When Michael feels - I don't want to do this right now - it's a different thing than when I feel I want some chips and cheese.
When I see this in him, for a second or 2 I think of all the other people there are in this world with similar issues that we normally take for granted. Instead of simply asking God to 'take care of them' we need to do something ourselves. We should genuinely "agree" with God in this and move our butts in that agreement. I confess that I'm as less likely as anyone reading this to move.
I ask God to show me his point of view and help me move toward it.
Thanks for stopping by,
Kirk