MIchael's Quest

Tri-Force - Faith, Hope, Charity

Junk

I guess "Stuff" is better than "Junk".  I don't know, I also guess I'm venting a little bit tonight.  Michael is hurting right now, something has him in so much pain that he's tight all over, but, of course I don't know what it is. So, I don't know what to do.  It's not all that unusual.  No matter what one's outlook is on life, what one's relationship with God is, it still is not good to know that your son is suffering and to know that you can't do anything about it.

So, my second thing of junk is the van.  One of these days I'll be praising God for the van conversion and all that it will bring to Michael.  But, right now I'm just sulking at the cost - 16,000 dollars.  That is a lot of money, for us it means a few years of payments.  I don't really feel I have a choice, we need it, Michael is stuck at home too much, doesn't get out, to church or just out enough.  It's pretty dangerous driving around with the wheelchair in the back, it wouldn't take much of a collision or even an fast stop or sharp turn to put everyone in the van in danger.  But, now I'm sulking at the cost.  Sulk sulk.

There is a lot I don't know and a lot I don't like.  I do know my LORD, my savior is here with us and none of this junk  :) is beyond his reach.

Tomorrow I hear from therapy about the plan from here.

 

Kirk

thanks for stopping by.

Posted: 04-21-2008 9:37 PM by kirk | with 2 comment(s)

Comments

kirk said:

Just went in to check on him - Michael I mean.  He's sleeping and smiling.  :)  Guess he's having a nice dream.  Some how that makes it alright, for now. :-)

# April 21, 2008 9:45 PM

Dolores Foutts said:

Hi Michael, I am so sorry you are hurting, I will be praying the Lord take away your pain or give the drs. wisdom & knowledge on why it is so they can help you. Bgut it sounds like your doing pretty good with your therapy, Praise the Lord for that. I sure do miss you, but as your dad said it is hard to put the wheel chair in the van and all the other stuff that goes with it, I know your dad is carrying a heavy burden, but the Lord knows also but we know that all things work together to those who love the Lord. I pray through this the Lord will show us where I need to bring honor and glory to the Lord Jesus Christ, I know there are others Michael that are watching you, besides, your dad, Connie, Addison and your Mom, we all need to totally depend upon the Lord and I know that is hard when you see your son suffering, but then we look at Jesus Christ and see how He suffered for us all. But just know you are loved so very much, most of the members in the Way of Life Class are always asking about you, so many care but now I can tell them specifically how to pray, for your communicating, your pain and all this will bring honor to the Lord Jesus Christ. He is your strength, He is your all, so I am totally depending upon Him because I know without Him I can do nothing and without Him I am nothing but with Jesus Christ I can do all things. So even tho I don't get to see you very much always know my thoughts and prayers are with you and all my love and I am so very proud of you for all you go through in therapy, I know it must seem like a very long day and I know at times it hurts, but you are improving and we know anything worth while sometimes there is a lot more to it than some of us realize, I know I can do more things than some of my friends, so I feel very blessed, but all that could change, we just never know what lies ahead for us, I just pray if and when that time comes I will remember all you have been through and not complain, just accept whatever it may be, but you are my witness and what a testimony you have. The Lord is always with you, He will never leave you or forsake you and I guess at times, you have to go through the pain and whatever else there could be, but just know the Lord is right by your side and He may be using you to show the rest of us we have nothing to complain or anything, and we much always let you know how proud we are, how much you are loved and what a great job you are doing, you have quite a burden to carry yourself and your doing it so well, I know the Lord is so proud of you. In His Word He was saying look at my servant Job, I imagine now He is saying look at my servant Michael. So keep up the good work, and always I am praying, the Lord will bless you in a very special way and that you can even feel His presence, you know He is right there with you, and also how much you are loved, appreciated and missed so very much. I am sorry I have not written to you more, but it is not that I forget you, I just don't remember to check your website, I could not forget you, I love you so very much and I am so very glad your my grandson, the Lord has blessed me richly and I thank Him for you also. I will be praying that the Lord take away your pain give you some relief and also give all the drs, nurses and therapist knowledge on how to help you. So goodnight my sweet grandson, again I love you very much and look forward to seeing you sometime. I will have your dad give you a hug and kiss for me and to squeeze his hand as you do mine, I love it when you do that.So until the next time, I sign off with all my love to my very wonderful and fantastic grandson. Lord be with Michael this night may he have a good night's rest and please Lord take His pain away and I thank you Lord also for all You are doing for Michael, Continue to hold him in your hand put your arms around him and let him know You are always there, thank You so very much we love you Lord and in Jesus precious Name I pray. Love Grandma F.

# April 23, 2008 9:40 PM