Good stuff in 2008
This has been a good year for me and my family. For Michael, for all of us - we have a lot to be thankful for.
We've gotten some stuff that has made life easier and better.
We've gotten our van converted - this has been awesome, it makes moving Michael much easier and safer, it allows us to do more and there is opportunity to do much more with the van.
We've gotten a lift installed - this is also awesome! We're able to get Michael in and out of bed much easier, much safer and as with the van it allows us to do more and we have the potential to do a lot more with it.
Christine had gotten some help and improvements to her house, she's got a ramp that allows for easier and safer movement outside the house, this has allowed Michael to get out more, she's gotten some help around the house also, it's been good for her.
Michael has been very healthy and he is content. Philipians 4:11 We can all learn a lesson from him here.
I've realized Michael is "okay". This continues to amaze me, really I just don't get it but Michael is good with life, good with God, he is happy. He goes through times where he isn't, he goes through times when he's mad at everything. Michel reluctantly will acknowledge that there are times when he's mad at God but that is for a time and then it's done. Generally I'd say he does better than I do, but this has been and continues to be an amazing lesson to me and teaches me more about my son and my Lord.
I've learned a little bit to just "BE with God". I've learned a little bit to not worry about the past or the future, to not try to figure it all out but to live in this moment here and now. I'm not saying this is 100%, nor do I believe it should be but it is good for me to let it go some times, to realize that I don't know it all and understand it all. Sometimes it doesn't fit, it doesn't make sense to me. This isn't that God doesn't fit, or doesn't make sense, it isn't my LORD who has to change it is me. He is not required to reveal everything to me or to make me understand, I am required to follow and obey him, to trust him. Sometimes I think - oh I see now and I've got it down, then soon I realize - ehh maybe not quite completely as I thought. I can see in the Bible and in my life that God uses processes, he doesn't just "poof" make it happen, he is much more than that. I thank God for what he has shown me and mostly for his patience with me.
Just because it isn't sin, doesn't mean it isn't stupid!
Just because God forgave the sin, doesn't mean he's taking away the consequences!
God isn't magic - God is REAL, more real that what you think you know or think you see.
Obey him, Trust him, BEEEEE with him.